I think that the vast amount of humanity is overly concerned with rebirth. Or maybe new things in generally, but I think that if my own lived experience is anything to go by, the experience of newness or rebirth is an ever present one.
Consider this, one of the things that I love to do first thing in the morning is clean. Like even before I have had my morning cup of coffee or even any breakfast. I love the feeling of a clean place so much, that once I roll out of bed it’s literally the first thing that I do every single day.
Like, every single day. Without fail. My clean space makes me feel at ease. Clutter is nowhere to be seen, the floors are spotless, and the kitty litter is done. There’s something about a clean home that me feel good and so I keep it up every single day. And I wonder if that has something to do with our obsession over new things. Who doesn’t like to buy new things? Who hasn’t opened a new piece of kitchen equipment or clothes package without experiencing a thrill? Maybe that’s why retail therapy is a thing.
But on the flipside, real change in this world is hard to come by. Let say you want to redesign your kitchen, it’s going to get messy. There will be literally water pipes or electrical panels that need to be moved, and that’s not easy or cheap. Or for instance getting into shape. That’s something that I have took for granted when I was in my twenties, it was easy to stay slim and it was easy to loose the weight if it ever came back on. But now? Now I need a gym membership, now I need to schedule time with a personal trainer to create a plan that can address my concerns (now they are not all about weight).
But it’s hard to make changes to your body. You cannot do that overnight or before your first cup of coffee. It’s not a thing that you can just buy. Which is probably why fad diets are a thing, it’s easy to do something dramatic and feel like it’s going to change your life. But in reality actual changes in your life are going to take time.
Having a baby takes time. Writing a novel takes time. Rebirth is not possible, we cannot immediately change our circumstance and become a whole new being. That happens only once. Any other change that is worthwhile is going to be hard, I feel like giving up constantly. I wish I could be reborn with a completely new habits and neuro-plasticity in my brain. But I cannot. And buying things wont make me feel better, slow steady work will be what I have to do instead.
